On the drive from Foggia to Rome with Anziano Carr and Anziano Pizza, I kept thinking ''how in the world?'' Things always just seem too good to be true. To drive through the Napoli zone one last time, past the Reggia of Caserta, with two of my favorite elders from the MTC. (No other sisters? What?) We talked about everything, plans and people, stories, had peanut butter and ritz crackers, and all the candy from mom's package. The closest thing to a road trip a missionary could imagine.
Driving into Rome, through the familiar streets, passing the park we had cleaned for the stake helping hands project my second transfer where I scraped the tip of my pointer finger off with a saw and became best friends with Gustavo...so many random memories came flooding back, and I was on the verge of tears, just overwhelmed with a feeling of gratitude for every single person I've met, for all of the experiences, everything I've learned. As we pulled up through the gate of the Villa, I felt it even more. There was Bird, Miller, my brothers! I went downstairs to put my backpack down and was met by Sorella Bradford and Vincent. What a reunion. Dinner was Hawaiian haystacks. Can we say America? And then Me and Bradford talked to Sorella Steurer for a while. (the mission secretary, aka my ''mission mom'' - after the Kelly's left - ). That's when the tears started. I tried to keep it together for, just a few, but really. She was talking about our group...we really are like a family. I feel like all these new ones have so much drama and stuff, problems with obedience...when they made the announcement about the age change President Kelly was apparently like ''oh man, good thing I'm going home. Here comes EFY.'' Not those exact words of course, but you know. The mission really has changed. And it's good...above all I just know I was here at the right time, with the right people, all the right experiences and places...Heavenly Father knows us perfectly. I have no doubt about that.
The next day we had capi conference. Lots of good information, lunch. Of all the things I've eaten here, nothing beats a simple panino with prosciutto crudo and formaggio. Inside pizza bianca...buono. We watched a dvd they made with pics from all the areas and missionaries. I kept thinking ''How am I going to leave?'' Goodbyes were tough. We decided to drive home a different way, through Benevento. I'm convinced that Italy is the most beautiful country in the world. It has everything. Rome aside, museums and ruins and food and fashion aside, the coasts, mountains, campagna...it's just too much.
We made it to Bari where I met up with Baker and stayed the night with the other sorelle. After huge panzerotti from La Maddalena. Train ride home the next morning. Past the vineyards of grape vines and olive trees...the sea. I love my mission.
After being back in Foggia for a day, trying to organize my thoughts and just focus on these last few weeks, I read this quote from Elder Holland:
''The past is to be learned from but not lived in. And when we have learned what we need to learn and have brought with us the best that we have experienced, then we look ahead and remember that faith is always pointed toward the future.''
''You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place, I told him, like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again.”
Yes, I am going to miss this. I have met such amazing people here...missionaries included. Especially missionaries. I just want to do everything I can to show Heavenly Father my gratitude, to put what I've learned into practice, to keep studying, to maintain the relationships and friendships I've made...to live up to His expectations. I know I can't ever do even the smallest part...but I can try.
Yeah. My thoughts are kind of all over the place these days. So I'm just focusing on being obedient, loving everyone. We set a baptismal date with this fifteen year old girl named Miriana for the fourteenth of February. Pray for her! The only setback is the fact that she doesn't think her dad will let her. So we're just going to keep doing all we can, ''expect a miracle''.
...after thinking, ''how will I go home?'' now I can't wait to share a room with my SISTER. Cami dearest, I'm counting down the days. I got a phone call from Sergio!! He told me he will be coming to Foggia soon. Couldn't be happier.
So things are good. Good enough that I love the mission, everyone in the ward, our investigators and can focus, but then there ìs...which helps the thought of leaving the rest seem a little more bearable.
Anyway, I love you all so much! Have a wonderful week!
Jenni